these coooool dys...

some where i see myself set in peace. thats good !i am again in deep warm love with my partner, thats mr.A...i rejoice being with him

unrealized newyear dream

I like to call it so. i expected so much. wished to have a drink like in the foreign films, lots of kisses, huggs from my 'secret' friend. secret because he remains secret in this little world.ok, he was away. miles nd miles away. i called him in my mobile. i ve showered hot kisses. he was murmuring my name... ...
In reality, i was participating in a family getogether at a friend's home. it was the only option i have yesterday, in such a mood of newyear celebration. i was the opposite by nature by all means. i never liked to enjoy family getoos. horrible....i know what they really are!!!!they are all in masques. ' A group mega show' of couples. still despite my hatred, i ve prepared myself to participate. mr.A asked me to take a peg to withstand the performance.
Unfortunately , at the party, i was too conscious about his boozing. like a normal wife, i followed him everywhere. i felt myself so cheap in being so.but there was no one else to cake care of him. nor he did it himself... i got depressed . ok, thats still another side of my life.

a peg of Jinn nd an evening at beechside hotel

actually for such a merry mood i really need a byfriend. but yesterdat at beechside hotel i had my drink with a woman friend. ok i dont get what i really want.i tried to converse with intimassy. i was desp when the hotel boy told me that no small fried fish today !!!1hm, this is the only time i eat non-veg. thats with drink alone !1 ok.
i was thinking of him my dearst partner, mr. a. i wish to forget such thoughts to for get myself. but was unable. see uuuuu

nothing happened.

i was with my partner. we are still in passionate love, after 10 years of conjugal life .huggs huggs...huggss..kises...kisses...kisses...he is the ideal friend. till this date i never attempted to analyse our relation ship to a third person. ok, thats another time.
Yesterday one of our friends brought me a scotch. i ve gulped just one large....enough to root out me. whole day i ve floated through air.its nice. stored energy for another month of job. today eve my friend ms.g s planned for a getogether. we will be in the seaside hotel lonne till at 8. i may take one small or half a beer. i cant withstand more. ultimately, i am not a drunkard. its just for fun. to relax. i dont find fault with those who drink to the bottom. only that am not like that. ok bye everybody....

xmass eve

i have been feeling the xmas mood these days. at office, in the centralised ac, i felt that i am in the coldest day of the xmas.caroles nd bells of egreetings were ringing from different compu systems , was reminding me of the same.today eve , what will i do? just taking bus to home? nooop! i always disliked this moving from one building into another. evenings are ,for, sure, beeches or roadsides.there is a gang of 'stray girls'.yes, very good friends... one is my friend. i sms her. actually she was signaling me often for a getogether. yes, now am waiting for her reply. if she is ok, i may go somewhere. or? may be one plate panipoori,i can atleast timepass at roadside at this beautiful-looking eve...lets hope the best. wish u all a merry xmas.lov

i love all of you

with all its sorrows and worries of life, still how beautiful its to write freely! i ve never thought that this will be realised.thank god...

i am very happy today

yes, am very happy today. i can write anything that come out of me here.....thank u all